i am doing well, trying to fit into the new role. in all earnest, things are going my way. but there's this beast sitting inside me, gnawing incessantly at the walls. there's this queasiness, one that borders on being painful. you don't quite cry out in pain yet, but the persistence makes you want to howl in anger, throw a proper bitch-fit. i'm tottering on edge, walking a fine line - cautious lest i leash out at the unsuspecting person crossing my path.
it is something i can't talk about with just anybody. it isn't something that i can ignore or overlook. it is something that is bearing down on me 24/7. it isn't something that shows any sign of letting go.
the veneer to niceties and happiness runs very very thin with me right now. all i can muster is a look of sombre disinterest in all matters.....
how did everything get so badly screwed up?
